I have tried a relaxation program: bodybalance – a mix of yoga and tai-chi. I know, you are going to ask me what is tai-chi 🙂 Don’t think I know much about it, but just a simple Google search and I find out that tai-chi is a martial art form which is revitalizing you, calms you (oh, I DO need this part so so much) and helps your blood circulation (mine is anyway crazy since I always have cold feet). So, there is me in the yoga atmosphere, stretching my body and sitting in all sort of impossible positions and the trainer saying: free your mind, empty your soul, leave your thoughts fly away … My mind was continuously thinking: Alright, I am emptying my mind … aah, how do I do that? Just go out thoughts, out you go, find something else to do or go to someone else, come back later or how about never? Is my mind free now? Oh shit, I forgot the laundry outside and the forecast was rain late in the afternoon. Woman, focus, free your mind, the almighty mind has to be free! This position is so not comfortable! Auch! I can’t wait the holiday, have coffee with my girls, go here and there, books, ooh so many boooks … yeah yeah, you mentioned it before, damn it, don’t you see, I am trying hard to free my fucking mind, I just have a very stubborn mind, it doesn’t want to get freed I guess! How V. taught me to say? I remember: I’m a waterfall, I’m a whole freaking waterfall! Wait, waterfall is not good, I can’t swim and I need to pee. What’s the time by the way, I have to pick up my kid from school. This trainer looks soo good! Hmm, I think I better leave this class.
So, NO. I am definitely not a yoga person. My mind just doesn’t want relaxation, can’t process these kind of actions: sponge – clean mind – feel better after. I just keep it all. Good, bad, all mine, don’t wanna give anything, not even the smallest thought 🙂 Selfish mind!
No more yoga actions. I am too restless for tai-chi and anyway, doesn’t tai-chi sounds like Chinese food?
PS I read somewhere that dancing in the forest can bring relaxation, tranquility, unwinding mind! I shall try 🙂
PS (to the other PS): The trainer was a SHE!
PS some years after I wrote this: I guess passing the 40’s will give you the inner calmness to do yoga and find balance in it. 42 now and never been happier with my yoga sessions 🙂